IcyKing's Memories

Dream - No Boundaries

2010-11-23T08:55:00.002+08:00

I had an AWESOME dream last night..

Dreamt that of my bros singing this song.. It made such an emotional impact that till now, I still can remember every detail of it..
Hopefully this dream can turn into reality.. *Hints*

Here it Goes!

NO BOUNDARIES - Band of Brothers

Adam, Amos (Plays intro)

Lester: Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you lost your way

Caleb:
And what if my chances were already gone?
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

WengLok:
So here I am, still holding on!

Lester, Wenglok, Caleb:
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries!

Aswin:
I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

Vincent:
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I've risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why!

WengLok:
So hear I am still holding on!

Lester, Vincent, Aswin, WengLok, Caleb:
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

Lester:
You can go higher,
Aswin:
you can go deeper
Vincent:
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
WengLok, Caleb:
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

Amos:
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe

Amos, Adam:
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

All:
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries!

Cold Weather or Cold Heart?

2010-03-23T11:35:00.004+08:00

Weather in Singapore has been rather cold lately.. Been sneezing like mad. Rain, cold winds breezing through the nation.

Somehow, the coldness has not only affected people physically but emotionally as well..

Recently, many people I know started being kind of cold towards each other.. Having mood swings.. Warm people start choosing friends instead of asking everyone like they use to..
People start keeping quiet and not reply when others talk to them..

Kind of tired from all these.. Politics everywhere I go.. I'm so stress that I had to go to the doctors and eat a pill that made me sleep for 24 hours..

I think I need another vacation to relax myself from the tension of Singapore!

An Update

2010-03-04T07:36:00.002+08:00

Wow, it has been 3 months since I last blogged.. Been kind of busy and down..
Year 2010 haas not started on a good note for me.. I have been doing and thinking of things that are totally opposite of my own nature..

Army life has been quite ok.. With my good pals and my "babe".. Haha.. Feel that we have really connected and become great friends not just collegues.. Being in NDP 2010 might be tough and stressful but it has been enjoyable with them..

All the good things will just fade away once something bad happens.. Something bad recently happened to me that caused a dark shadow from the past to loam over me once again.. Didn't really tell anyone what happened recently which is kind of strange because I usually will share anything with my best bros.. This event has caused me great pain to the extend that sometimes I wouldn't be able to sleep at night because I can see images of what happened flying around in my head.. Tears just somehow start rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably and I have to try to make as little sound as possible so that I would not disturb my bunk mates or cause people (People who I don't really wanna talk to about this situation) to keep asking me what happened..

Having to put on a fake and strong front in front of people and pretend nothing has happened is really difficult.. sometimes I just wanna scream my head out but I know if I act all emotional and stuff, people will start asking and I might worry some of them..

Guess I need to fight this battle once again like the previous time it occurred.. Probably 5 years back.. Took me 6 months to get out then.. Wonder how long it will take me this time..

Thanksgiving

2009-12-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

Well, today I served like super alot! Sang for S3, For Unto Us & Thanksgiving Service.. That's a total of like 15 songs at least.. Haha.. think those who sang for S4 will have at least 20 songs..

Anyway, with a sore throat and everything, still went to sing because it is a privilege and honor to sing for thanksgiving =)

The whole event was so tear-jerking.. Every speaker that came forth, every award winner that walked up, all of them had tears in their eyes.. Seeing those tears, you know how much they have been through to be able to win those awards.

Testimonies being shared were so real.. Sitting on the choir stand, I had the best view of what was going on.. The presence on the stage was remarkable!

Seeing how Pastor Kong and Sun have touched the lives of so many people, I couldn't help but stop to think, "Would there be a day where someone will actually have so many things to thank me for? Will I be able to impact others' lives like how Pastor and Sun did?"

Then one of the person giving the testimony said this "I feel so sad for those people who don't know Sun as a friend. With her, just her alone as your friend, you don't need anyone else" I was like Wow.. and I started asking God, "God, how come I don't have a friend like Sun?" then God told me "You do. Just that they come in different faces. Clarence, everyone of your buddies that is being placed around you have 1 or more of those qualities. You just have to know who has what"

Vexed to the Max

2009-12-19T01:22:00.003+08:00

Really kind of vexed during the past few months.. Leaving and coming back again.. time and time again, things happening repetitively.

Lots of thoughts and flashbacks that keep appearing and disappearing.. Sometimes I wonder.. Am I really the person controlling my mind, my thoughts?

Good and bad memories, flushing in as fast as water flowing down a waterfall.. Memories overflowing till I have no space to contain..

Wanting to throw them away but they make up for who I am today..

Hoping every day, a miracle will happen but it hasn't..

Now my heart is filled with emptiness and yet full.. Joy and yet sadness.. Hope and yet reality..

Lost!

My Unhealthy Lifestyle

2009-11-27T02:43:00.002+08:00

Well, today, reality struck me as I saw the layers of fats forming at my tummy.. Really shocking..
I realised that ever since I went into Pes E, all I have been doing is eat, sleep.. Not much exercise at all! That is all going to change! Be it leg sprained or not..

1. I'm not gonna eat snacks!
2. I'm gonna sleep latest 2230hrs.
3. I'm gonna run everyday
4. By end of the year, I wanna weigh 70kg!

One of the reason for choir is to have visual impact.. I may dress well but without the build, I still don't look good.. All for His glory! I will shine!

Great Day

2009-11-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

Well today was quite a good day for me.. First up, woke up quite shag from the Movie outing last night.. Watched 2012 with the N233, N415, N470 and N469 peeps.. Haha.. All under Joseph before.. Cool eh? The show was really good.. I felt that it was worth the money.

Anyway, today's cell group message was kind of related to me I guess.. God reminded me that I have to be patient with the people around me and really be a blessing to people be it whether they like me or not.. I wanna portray the love of God to people and show them what sacrificial love means.. Not gonna be easy but with God, all things are possible.. =) Amen!

After cell group, Gretchen, Nigel and I played MONOPOLY!!! HAHA! Retro game and I won! I had $3400 cash and they had like $1000-$2000 only.. Hehe.. I practically bought like everything property there was.. =x I always thought Monopoly was a boring game but my perspective of that game totally changed now.

Then we headed to meet up with Jeremy, Claria and Samuel and went Shaw House to eat KFC.. We then proceeded to Jeremy's 2nd house area, the playground there and ate Ice-Cream =) Woohoo.. Started talking to the people and really got to know them better.. And then Samuel started telling us jokes that weren't even like jokes.. You should ask him to tell you one day.. Assuredly I say to you, you will punch him.. Haha..

From the past week, I guess my relationship with Nigel has grown alot more stronger.. Believe this is the start of a beautiful brotherhood =)

Anyway, headed back home after that and now blogging.. Gonna rest early for tml's service and blood donation!!!!

~Nai Outz!~

Don't Really Know What To Do

2009-11-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

Well, past few months in army has been quite interesting for me I guess.. Today I was kind of pissed off with my army mates.. Not all of them..

Went for choir practice today and they told me to unlock my drawer because all the food is inside.. I was kind of reluctant because from past experience, usually food bought for 1 or 2 weeks would be finished in 1 or 2 days.. They told me that it is them who will be in the room so not to worry.. I trusted them and kept my drawer unlocked..

However, when I reached back, I realised that the food had depleted.. I was really kind of pissed off.. and they said "its not like we didn't contribute" Fact is, everytime its always either a split cost or I bought food and brought in.. Probably memories of them buying was fading but that isn't the problem.. Problem is, I kind of feel that I'm being taken advantage of..

Right now, they give me an impression that they are good work partners but not good as friends. where else the person they keep talking bad about.. Although he is a bad person to work with but I enjoy his friendship more.. I think people just talk bad about him because they are being brainwashed by the more "popular" people..

As a Christian, I do want to be a blessing to others.. but Christians are not stupid either.. We bless but we don't get taken advantage of.. It's not like I earn alot anyway.. $400 a month.. Its even lesser than my Attachment allowance.

Now, I'm kind of torn in between.. I'll be working with them for the next 7-8 months.. Should I let money come between us or should I just suffer silently? Somehow, I know that if I stood up for myself, probably working there would be harder and probably they will start talking behind my back..

After Such A Long Time

2009-10-28T13:39:00.008+08:00

Wow.. its has been months since I last blogged..

Well, nothing much has happened actually.. Most major thing that happened in my life is probably enlisting into NS.
To tell u the truth, being in PES E is really boring.. and you do alot of shit work.. I rather I did not go for medical checkup and end up in this PES..

Apart from all these, I celebrated a few things.. First was before my enlistment.. Like 1 day before! Choir friends celebrated my enlistment and brought me to KBOX! Woohoo

Think this year is probably the year whereby my friendship with the choir members really started to get stronger.. Really love this bunch of people.. They never fail to make my day =) Thanks guys..

Oh ya, on that very same day, Vincent and Ben blessed me with a new phone for Army!

Alright, 2nd event was probably Joshua's birthday.. Haha.. I reached there late but nevertheless was entertained.. I was probably the only pure breed EXPO person there and they treated me with endless entertainment.. of course, Joshua was very sporting and he played along with us..

3rd event was Ben's 21st Birthday! Well, as usual, the choir went out to celebrate for him. We went to some Jap restaurant which I totally cannot remember the name.. It's at Ion Orchard.. Anyway, after that we went to TCC to have some drinks till like 12 midnight and we wished him Happy Birthday!!! =)

4th event was the Mooncake Festival.. Our subzone got together and had a mini celebration.. Playing games and carrying the lanterns.. It was also the first picture N469 took.. and you guessed it, it is my new cell group! YAY!

Last but not least, celebrated my best friend's birthday.. ASWIN! Haha.. This year regrettably i didn't really get him a gift due to time issues but what I did was, I tried making the presents people bought him look better.. and bought him an ice-cream cake from swensens too.. Spend quite a lot on the birthday but it was worth it.. Now the stress part is, how am I going to top this next year?

Oh well.. back to work now I guess.. Shall let tommorrow worry for itself.. WAIT! Don't close the window yet! Tell you a good news, I got selected for JAMs BV! YAY! Officially a BV now.. Very Excited.. Can't wait to see what God has installed for me... If He can bring me through, He can certainly do the same for you.. AMEN! =)

Army!

2009-09-19T20:56:00.003+08:00

Well, it's finally my turn to go to army. 15 Sept 2009, 8:30am, I stepped into Pulau Tekong for the first time.. It was totally not what I expected to see.. It was really well furnished and well developed. Looked like a super big chalet to me! Haha..

Anyway, got to go register my ID and got my 11B card. It picture looks so much much better than my IC! Then, we went into the main audi and took some Oath which I cant even remember what I said.. Haha.. and we sang the National Anthem which was I was so unfamiliar to.

Soon, the journey begins! AHHH!! We got to our bunkers and I was in Ulysses Company Platoon 1 Section 4! Haha.. So much to remember.. Anyway, got to unpack my stuff and man, was it tiring.. Then, got to know my section mates.. Edwin, Logaraj, Jason, Nigel, Big Ben, Vincent, Small Ben, HeYe, FuSeng and Alan. They are really cool people and really enjoyed my whole stay there with them. Wouldn't trade my team for any other team!

Alright, then comes the shaving of hair! NOOO! My HAIR! Isn't it ironic? When I least bothered about my hair, everyone told me to style it etc. When now I finally take an interest in it, I have to shave it off! WTH!

Alrighty.. So here is what I have been doing for the past 5 days..

5:30am: Wake up
5:45am: 1st Water Parade
6:00am - 6:30am : Breakfast
6:30am - 7:45am: SLACK!
7:45am - 11:00am= either area cleaning, drills etc
11:00am - 11:30am = Lunch
11:30am - 5:00pm = either drills, lecture or slack.
5:00pm - 5:30pm = Dinner
5:30pm - 8:00pm = SLACK!
8:00pm - 9:30pm = night snack, water parade + RO
9:30pm - 10:30pm = admin time
10:30pm onwards = Lights out!

Boring right? I'm like eat sleep shit all the way! Growing OBESE!

Amazing!

2009-09-07T13:55:00.003+08:00

Wow! This is amazing! I was just asking God "God, are my friends really so busy that they have no time for me? " Immediately when I said that, Richard called! We talked and I felt my emotions calming down and my burdens lifted.. God is indeed good.. And the thing is, he had a prompting from God to call me! Wow! God is indeed good all the time!

Yet Another Day

2009-09-07T13:19:00.002+08:00

Oh well, past few days have been quite interesting.. I totally never go out at all! Except for church and cell group.. It is kind of weird.. Wonder where all my friends went..

Till a certain extend, quite disappointed coz saw many people posting on facebook on where they went and so on.. Really makes me wonder..

On the side note, past few days have really been hell for me.. People not replying sms till like 1-2 hours later or even worse, some till now haven even reply yet.. Beginning to think no one takes what I do seriously.. Probably everyone thinks I would do it so taking me for granted... I dunno! But what I know is, if this continues on, I'll just wash my hands off things and let everything just flop.

Right now, still awaiting to see if there is any programmes on for me.. If not, I'm just gonna rot at home like any other day..

8 more days and counting....

Day Out With Subzone Members

2009-09-03T21:51:00.003+08:00

Wow. Today is really a super long day for me.
To start it all off, I went to Changi Airport at 8:30am to have breakfast with Shella, Elle, Karen. Shella was going back to Indonesia due to some pass which have not been approved yet.

Jeremy(JY) came a little later..

After Shella left, we went to slack for like 1 hour before deciding to head to Tampines. Accompanied Jeremy to CPF building and we headed to play the arcade. Haha. Kind of fun. Played racing games and house of the dead 2. Which we died miserably under the hands of the 1st boss =( We didn't manage to fight till very far. Oh on the side note, Jeremy has an admirer! There is this guy who followed us wherever we went. Kind of creepy!

Soon after, we met up with Afred to go print the promo card for BlockBuster Sunday! Before doing that, we actually stop by Iluma and well, played arcade again! LOL! Played the new capcom game which we totally lost to some no life teenager who spends his whole life there.. haiz..
Anyway, we headed off to do some shopping and realised we were lost. Both of them started talking about faith.. Haha. Jeremy said we just walk by faith. sure correct.. But we ended up lost. Took us like 30mins-1 hour before we found the place to print the promo card. Total amount, cut + print = $14.80. Kind of ok for 64 pieces of A6 cards i guess.

But the day doesn't end there. We headed to Parklane mall and played like numerous games like CS, Battlefield etc. Played for like 3 hours! Haha.. My first time playing CS till so happy.. This goes to show that, it is not the game or the things that you do. It is about who you do it with =) Your company makes a huge difference

1st Post After 1 Million Years

2009-09-03T02:21:00.000+08:00

Wow. Been like super long since I last blogged.. Kind of rusty with it now. Well, been kind of busy lately.

Just an update on what I've been doing.. Well, went through 5 months of School of Theology (SOT) which as really tiring but fun =) Got to know so many people and made many new friends like Joshua, Javius, Jourdan and all the other people whose name starts with J.. =x

Anyway, there was this particular guy who really changed my whole SOT life and that person is none other than Richard L.C.D..

He always encouraged me when I was down and became a blessing to me when I was in lack. Truly, he made my SOT life a lot easier =) Thank you bro!

Soon, it was graduation time and we all went for like 3 services.. Finally finished this phase of our lives and graduated! Yippy!

After the whole big finale and stuff, I began working at Attributes book store for extra cash. Pay was like $6/hr.. Was kind of doing manual labour i guess.. But time passed quickly..

Right now, I have been busy designing my subzone's event.. Blockbuster Sunday!

Looking forward to it! Oh ya.. Today, went to eat Dim Sum Buffet with Jeremy.. And Got Willy a present for his birthday which is coming soon! 5th September! Haha.. God I need blessing.. So many birthdays.. I'm broke! But well, you can't love without giving!